man, i'm starting to notice the difference big time. my jeans don't fit me anymore and it looks like i'm gonna have to buy some new belts since i'm down to the tightest notch....
damnit, i just bought some expensive, perfectly fitting clothes just a couple months ago!!
anyways, other than that minor observation, i'm noticing a big difference in basketball.
guys that i used to push around with ease are all of a sudden knocking the shit out of me. the other day i took a charge on this one dude and i went absolutely flying backwards. and then today i got bumped on a layup and once again i went flying the other way.
ah well. i might miss being the guy that could throw his weight around but its definitely cool being able to keep up with the quickest guys on the court.
ok, so the other day i was sitting in my accounting class over at mt. sac...things have been going great, i've finally buckled down and started focusing on my weakest subject. maybe its the pills, maybe its the fact that i have no more second chances...i dunno, but i'm really focused...
well, focused until i notice that the girl sitting in front of me has this freakish nubbin next to her ear.
this thing is monstrous....its not like a tiny little thing of skin...its more like a third nipple on her head...its more like god had extra skin leftover and decided to put it on her....
when she's looking straight ahead, i don't notice it...but she's always turning to her friend on the left, which exposes that god-forsaken thing to me, right in my line of sight. and the worst part about it is we have assigned seating...so i have to live with this for 5 hours a week for the next 15 weeks!!!
god, i can't concentrate anymore!!!
maybe if i just focus really hard...tell myself that everything's okay...its all good...nubbin's wrong...i mean, nothing's wrong!!! aaaaaargh!!!
Accounting Professor: in the past 20 years, i'd say 85% of my students get A's and B's in my class. Accounting Professor: i don't like to give anything lower than C's. Accounting Professor: i'll let you drop the course before you fail it.
that is music to my ears.
the only drawback is this class is from 7:00-9:30pm, mondays & wednesdays, til may 20th.... that's an ass load of hours compared to cal poly's standard 3.4 hours/week for 10 weeks.
my FRL300 class looks interesting....the professor is really cute ...but she's seriously fresh off the boat. i have to pay extra attention to get past her thick thai accent. she speaks somewhat slow, which is actually a good thing for me cuz this crap is confusing as balls.
the gaysauce thing about these classes is they're both night classes...i'm gonna miss so much good tv...specifically the oc (), joey, lost & laker games. ah well, it'll all be worth it when i get those A's and back into cal poly.
oh yeah, i know that the advisor bitch told me to not take PE classes anymore...but fuck that, i'm going to 'em. i'm not enrolled in 'em but i'm tight with the coaches so its all good.
in other news, its been a week since i got on the pill....the ADD pill, that is. i've gotta say, it felt a little wierd the first few days. i noticed something pretty significant...my appetite was taken down a couple notches and...I CAN'T GET IT UP ANYMORE!!!! i talked to one of my friends that's also on the pill and he said he has the same problem sometimes.
great...just great...my appetite is null and i'm not greeted every morning by woody anymore... i'm no longer the hungry, horny mel that you all know and love...
maybe that's the source of my possible ADD...food and porn...
aaaanyways, that's all for now. until next week-ish...
Random Stuff
its one thing when waiters like you...but its a whole 'nother thing when a gay waiter hits on you...
taught phoebe's dog how to hump
the living room couch in my apartment gets more ass than me....my roommates are always going at it with their girls.
bought the unrated harold & kumar go to white castle dvd
conan's 10 year anniversary special dvd is the shiznat
fiesta platters @ acapulco are my everest!!!
Songs of the Moment
Almost by Bowling for Soup
Take It All Away by Ryan Cabrera
True (Spanglish Version) by Ryan Cabrera
Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day
"Who needs undies when you got the support of your friends."
Advisor Lady: that's great how you got straight B's last quarter Advisor Lady: but i refuse to approve your appeal until you pass these two classes [FRL300, ACC208] Advisor Lady: and if you get back in Advisor Lady: don't you dare take another PE class Advisor Lady: i don't want to see that PE crap on your transcript ever again
so yeah, despite the fact that i got a B average last quarter, she showed no mercy to me. basically the ultimatum is i take and pass my two worst subjects....if i don't, i'm done for good. oh, and there's a time limit....i have until summer to do this. good stuff. so, i'm forbidden from taking basketball & volleyball (which are my stress-relieving parts of my day), and the rest of my life depends on how i do in my two worst classes. dandy. just fucking dandy.
ok, fine...so how can i take these classes when i'm no longer a cal poly student??
enroll @ cal poly under the Open University program....which costs $200 per UNIT. (yes, that's two-hundred-fucking-dollars per unit) or....
enroll @ mount san antonio community college...but the problem is, its on the semester system. (cal poly is on the quarter system) taking classes @ mt. sac would mean i waste winter AND spring quarter @ cal poly.
Chris Pinyo: mel, you need to stop looking for perfection...cuz you're not gonna find it. no one's perfect. nothing's perfect. everything has flaws...but its these flaws that you have to deal with to make it work. I'll never forget that.
This was at the Boat one late spring night...me, Chris and Augustus. We started out talking about sex, you know, like how guys typically do...but then somehow we eventually got to talking about love & relationships...and it was one of the most deep conversations I've ever had.
I remember him telling me how much he hates his ex-girlfriend now...
Chris: i hate her so much...she put me through so much pain... Mel: ...if you could go back in time, would you do it again? Chris: yeah...even though it hurts now, I did love her at one point...and we did have some great times.
Whoa. I never heard anyone say something like that before...probably because I was too scared to intrude on someone's love life like that.
But still...after pondering about it for the rest of the night, I realized this whole talk is more than just about relationships...it's about LIFE.
Think about it...life is full of flaws. Nothing in this world is perfect. NOTHING. Its funny, you hear Ms. Universe pagaent contestants wishing for bullshit like world peace...:rolleyes:
And this idea of imperfection applies to people too...think about it...what if everyone in this world was perfect? We'd all be Gods. And if everyone was perfect, what would seperate one guy from the next? What would make people UNIQUE??? If we were all perfect, we'd all be the same.
Our flaws are what make us HUMAN.
What would the world be like without Erol acting like a dumbass? What would the world be like without Sherwin's brash male chauvanist humor? What would the world be like without Drunken Josh making a fool of himself when he's drunk?
It'd be BORING AS FUCK.
So, after realizing all of this...realizing how imperfection is just a part of life...I realized that not only should I be thankful for all the blessings in my life...but I should be thankful for all of the flaws that make me the man that I am today.
I went to the Boat (a kick-ass thai restaurant) yesterday with Melissa (Le). I'm a regular there and the waiters thought I was on a date so they hooked us up with some free boba smoothies. And last time, when I went with Phoebe, they hooked me up with extra fried rice. The guys there always hook me up cuz I've probably been their best customer since I bring in everyone I know to the place. Anyways, it got me thinking...how many people have I taken to the Boat? Well, off the top of my head...
Alan, Angela, Anthony, April, Augustus, Bojo, Cathy, Chain, Chris, Colin, Craig, Cristina, Dan, Danny (Baller), Darwin, Elisa, Jackie, James, John, Joyce, Josh M, Karen, Kristy, Laura, Melissa G, Melissa Le, Mike Holt, Mom & Dad, Mr. & Mrs. Blake, Phoebe, Rachel, Rainee, Rich, Ron, Rose, Ryan, Sam (CPP), Suey, Thomas, Travis
That's 43 if I've counted correctly...hit me up if I forgot ya or someone else...
ok, so i got this letter from cal poly...and well...i got kicked out...
spring quarter really f'ed me up and got me down to academic probation...and then i fucked it up again by getting another F during summer quarter. i did get a B+ in my other class, but in terms of GPA, a B+ and an F just put me a bit deeper in the hole...
i'm allowed to stick around for the rest of the quarter...but after this quarter, i'm out...i'm not exactly sure if i'm out indefinitely or just for two quarters...but either way, its not something i'm proud about...
Good News
if i can ace all my classes this quarter, i can file for an appeal and get back in.
More Good News
i might have attention deficet disorder and/or dyslexia. ok, that's not exactly good news, haha, but its something that can help me in my appeal.
i've mentioned this to a few people, and some of them looked at me like i'm faking my possible diagnosis......i'm serious about this. this was something i wanted to look into a while ago but i was just never got around to actually getting tested.
i got a hold of a Preliminary Learning Disability Screening Questionaire from the Disabled Students Center...its kinda funny...check it out:
When following directions to an unfamiliar place, I easily get lost.
I look to Thomas Edison for inspiration. when asked if he felt discouraged about failying 1073 times before inventing the lightbulb, he said, "I did not fail 1,073 times. I found 1,073 ways not to do it." i know now that programming is not for me...so now i'm gonna look into Customer Relations Management in e-Business.
...and on a whole 'nother note...
Really, Really Bad News
Uncle Rolly passed away. ever since he was diagnosed, and with his worsening condition over the months, we all knew this was coming...but still, its a damn hard pill to swallow.
everytime i think about it, i cry...not necessarily because its the 3rd loss in my family in under a year (yes, Pube counts as family)...i cry for my auntie and my cousins, raynell & rose. i mean, i've gotten into some pretty big fights with my dad...but all of that seems so insignifcant to what raynell & rose are going through...i dunno what would happen if i lost my dad...especially at a young age...
Thinking Postively
my family has such a tight bond...and i'm so proud of it. like when jamie passed away, we were all worried for cristina and kainoa...especially since cristina is paralyzed from the waist down...
"Ohana means family; family means no one gets left behind."
but this amazing little thing that hawaiian's call "ohana" is so strong with us...you guys might've heard me when i bitch about going to my family get-togethers...cuz i always end up meeting a bagillion aunties & uncles that i never knew existed...i'm realizing now that this is a huge blessing -- there's always someone (usually several someones) around that'll support whoever...
kinda like the amish...if one of 'em has a house that burns down, the whole town comes together and builds a new one...
so yeah, its kinda like we're amish...except we're darker skinned, almond eyed, flat nosed and allowed to watch porn on hbo television...
"Ohana means family; family means no one gets left behind." - Lilo, from Lilo & Stich
Man, things have been slow on this site...probably because of several reasons. I'm finding myself going out a lot more and visiting people (esp in the dorms) now that school has started. Classes are pretty cool...I finally have some good teachers that have a teaching style that's compatible with me.
Tuesdays and Thursdays are definitely the best days...Astronomy, Basketball and Volleyball. Even though Astronomy is an 8am class, the stuff actually keeps me awake because this was my first passion when I was a kid. BBall and VBall are always cool...I finally got my buddy Pavel to enroll in the classes, and we play awesome together on the court. For volleyball, I've gotten a shit load better...probably cuz I was playing beach volleyball with Josh the whole summer. I'm also actually spiking the shit out of the ball on the men's nets...probably cuz I've lost weight since being traumatized by Super Size Me.
Food for Thought
Oh yeah, that's another thing...I'm actually doing really good with my eating..I've seriously cut down on the greasy fast food...no more burgers...eating more chicken and rice but in smaller portions...and no more eating after 6. I haven't weighed myself yet but I can definitely see my toes now the difference. Today was my cheat day but I realized that cheat day isn't even fun anymore...its just straight up gross. I actually had a difficult time downing one double-double (double cheeseburger)...it was really wierd but at least in a good way. Its kinda like that one summer in Saudi when Zizi had an all-girls fancy dinner party...I dressed up as a girl and got in...and when I was eating, all the girls jokingly gave me crap for my "eating like an animal" tendencies...that actually traumatized me so now my appettite gets psychologically surpressed when I eat around (most) girls.
Ohana
Oh yeah, a little update on my uncle...he's doing absolutely terrible. He has like zero energy...has to be spoon-fed...no energy to talk and can barely open his eyes because light is painful...omg, its just so painful to see him like this...and the really painful part is seeing Rose (my cousin, his daughter) trying to deal with this...I can't even imagine what its like for her...
One thing I'm really proud of is how all of my family and relatives are helping out anyway possible...when he was in the hospital, there was ALWAYS someone there beside his bed...and every weekend, there's always a family get-together..."Ohana means family. Family means no one gets left behind."
More Random Stuff:
Web Cams are fun...
Watch Shaun of the Dead...its funny as balls.
Free food @ Webb...I actually went back to Webb with fellow classmate, Stan, and got some free country fried chicken steak (chicken country fried steak? fried country chicken steak? chicken fried country steak?? )
My JustBBall.com was selected as the Site of the Month for theadminzone.com...()...I'll post my interview here when it's published this November.
Song of the Moment: Smile by Tamia
PL: we might have our share of fights here and there...there might be moments when you just absolutely piss me off...but at the end of the day, I care about you...and I'll always be here for you.
Random Quote of the Moment: if you don't like anal sex, you must be gay... at the irony.
