"The Gods envy us."

I'll tell you a secret. Something they don't teach you in your temple. The Gods envy us. They envy us because we're mortal, because any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.

—Achilles, played by Brad Pitt in the movie, "Troy"

I love love love this scene. Not because of the religious stuff or cuz Brad Pitt gets half-naked...but cuz it reinforces the idea of cherishing what you have like there is no tomorrow.

Like the final months of each major chapter in my life:

  • My final year of middle school before going off to boarding school.

  • My senior year of boarding school

  • My last summer vacation in Saudi Arabia before moving to the states permanently.

  • My final year of college.

I remember those times better than any other. I knew those moments would be my last, so I really savored every bit of it.

Unfortunately for most of those years in between, I somewhat took for granted. I kinda lived through those years by just going through the motions of things. It's just too easy to fall into that kinda trap when you have that overoptimistic mentality of "forever."

But when you realize that all things in your life could be pulled from right under you at any moment...you learn to truly appreciate everything.

"If I only had a few months to live, what would I do? Would I treat anyone differently than I do now? Would any of this resentment in my heart really matter anymore?"

Something big came up last night and it really changed my perspective on things. I realized that yeah, I would treat certain people differently, and that no, the resentment would no longer be worth it.

Just like that, this heavy weight on my heart that I've been carrying around for the past couple months...suddenly had no reason to be there anymore.

What ever happened, happened. And whatever million questions I had on why things ended the way they did...they just don't matter.

So today, I set myself free. With just a few text messages I was able to make amends...And man, it feels so good to breathe again.

A Story of Loyalty

On the second day of being back home in Summer '02 -- just a few hours after getting heartbroken by this one girl I was talking to for several months -- my homeboy came up to me:

Mel, I'm really sorry the way shit went down last night with you and her"...but I've got to be honest with you: the past few weeks I've started to feel something for her...and I get the vibe that she's into me too. I'm really starting to like her, man"¦but I won't go after her if you don't want me to.

Of course I knew the rest of summer was gonna be a shitty one, having to watch them be happy together while I deal with all the pain. But with that kind of love, respect and simple heads up he gave me as a brother...I couldn't say no.

He got the girl. I dealt with the pain. They eventually broke up...but in the end, him and I grew tighter as friends.

I'll never forget that.

My Tattoo

Ladies and Gentlemen"¦my tattoo.

The idea behind it is simple: all the places I hold close to my heart have palm trees — Philippines, Saudi Arabia and In-N-Out California.

It just seems so personal having something of meaning on the wrist; it's always visible to me.

In psychology they say that visibly exposing your wrist to someone is body language for saying, "I trust you." I figure that if anyone ever notices my wrist tattoo, they're already someone that I trust and I'd want to share the meaning of it with them.

Otherwise it's discrete to the rest of the world. =]

(Oh, and it hurt like a biatch. hahah)

Thank you, everyone!!

Thank you, everyone, for all the birthday wishes! I feel so young turning 21 again for the 7th straight year! My phone would NOT stop buzzing all day cuz of all the @replies, facebook notifications, tumblr posts and text messages...birthdays like yesterday remind me how blessed I am.

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Hopefully I got everyone in here that gave me a shoutout (over 240!?!). Love you all! <33

-Mel

My Life in One Word

Back in the day, I was thinking of getting a single-worded tattoo in the form of a chinese character. Hella cliche, right?

Thankfully I've moved on passed that. I'm not sure if I'll ever get a tattoo, but it was fun putting a great deal of thought I into finding a single word that defines my life.

How do you pick one word to define your life anyway?? I can't remember how I did it...my vocab sucks. But whatever I did, it probably involved spending a lot of time searching up words on the internet. It was no easy task but I eventually came up with one word that fit nicely:

Faith.

I had three reasons for this word:

  1. Faith in God because I believe He'll give me all the opportunities I'll ever need to truly be happy.
  2. Faith in others because I know that I won't be able to do everything in my life by myself. And of course...
  3. Faith in myself because God's not simply going to hand me everything I want on a silver platter; there are gonna be things that I will have to dig deep inside and work my ass off for. While God will give me all of the opportunities, it is up to me to make the right decisions.

But that tattoo concept of Faith was several years ago...so much has happened in my life since then.

While Faith is something that'll always keep my head up as I look towards the future, there are so many things in my life right now that I should never take for granted. And in the past, there have been so many hardships I've endured -- so many lessons learned -- that have all played a big part in shaping me to be the person I am today.

So I need a word that embraces all of that...and I think I've found it.

A single word that cherishes all of the things I've learned in the past, appreciates all of the good things in my life in the present, and keeps me optimistic as I look forward to the future. The perfect, simplest way to describe my life in just one word:

Blessed.